Shouldn't I know all that by now? I never pictured at 24 I'd be so lost.
As my final days before this journey dwindle away more quickly than the previous, I find myself feeling more and more sad. That's normal though, right? But I've done it before, shouldn't I be used to leaving by now? To saying goodbye? I think overall I hate growing attached to people because I know that I don't plan on staying. And so when it does happen, I don't know what to do. I thought I was better at keeping myself guarded. I've only been at my current job five months and I'm really going to miss those people.
But people phase in and out of your life all the time. Some will always be there for you. Most won't. It is what it is. I'm really bad at being a hit and run kind of person. I don't like staying at any one place for longer than necessary. I don't like getting attached.
I think that's one of the things that I found appealing about Americorps. It's 10 months and then 'see-ya later!'. That's really just one small thing, though. There's so much I'm looking forward to in the next 10 months. The things we'll do. Places we'll go. Lives we'll change.
It's going to be one helluva year.
[And this was a lot of rambling. I think I'm being overly emotional and trying to not think about getting my wisdom teeth removed tomorrow.]
Hopefully next time I'll have my flight itinerary! (:
"And if you're faced with the choice and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you."
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